the funny thing is...

• while driving a ripped fireman runs by and Bella says, "That man is Hot!"  I said, "what?"  "He is so hot he had to take his shirt off!" Phew.
• I asked Lucy where she was going, she said "To the potty, ya know, fish heaven."
• Bella asked me the other day, "Mom, why is there white in your hair?"  Let me tell you why honey.
• So, I never watch TV, mostly because the shows I watch are not kid appropriate.  So, I save them all for while I clean kitchen, fold laundry, eat mass amounts of snacks after the kids go to bed.  One of my favorite programs is Ghosthunters.  After about 20 minutes in the other night Bella comes in to tell me the TV is too loud, it is keeping her up.  Well, her room is around the corner and you can not hear the TV so I realize she is watching from there.  She asks what the program is about and I say something like, oh these guys are at a frat house and they are just having fun.  She says, "No they aren't.  They are looking for a little girl ghost who fell down the stairs and died.  Her name is Abigail."  Ah Shit.  Well, how do I explain... this is one of these mommy moments... I need to make a positive impact, I got nothing.  Go to bed little girl.

ABBY HAS DISCOVERED HER HANDS!!! That is all for tonight. I have a ton to say soon... For now, I sleep.

Abby just cried when Lucy left the room, you have no idea how great that is? Talked to my mom on the phone, you have no idea how great that was. Lucy and Bella already have pjs on for funzies, that could be really great!

Heartbreaker

Abilene is a little heartbreaker, no pun intended. One of the hardest parts about having a child with a disability is the heartbreak you feel so often because of many things. First there is the adjustment of your dreams for that child. I am doing okay with that. Next there is the worry for the future, I don't think that will ever go away. For Abby, there are constant ailments hanging over her head, we just wait for them to pop up, or not, but the list is just long and annoying and constantLy on my brain. Nothing could compare to what I would feel when she was evaluated and I was told what delays she is starting to show. There are a few things she not only meets, but excells at, like communication. She is a talker. Basically, mentally she is not showing too much of a delay, but physically she is delayed, and it broke my ever loving puddin heart. I know she will be, but I don't want to hear it. It brings back so many of my students' parents conversations and I get it now. I get how everything people say whether well intentioned or not, will rip my heart to pieces. I need to grow a thicker skin I guess. Because this is only the beginning.

Apparently I make cream...

We had all 3 girl's well checks last friday. I shall start with the eldest Bella-46lbs 2 oz 84% 44 inches tall 78% practically perfect in every way Lucy- 34lbs 4 oz 81% 39 inches tall 88% practically perfect in every way Abilene- 16 lbs 12 oz 80% 23.75 inches tall 11% (on the typical Kid chart) Practically perfect in every way We discussed the gluten issue and have decided she probably doesn't have celiac since she would be "failing to thrive" which she clearly isn't. So we will stick with dairy free breast milk untill she is six months and reevaluate then. Oh what fun it is to go to the Dr.! The girls have been pretending they are Dr.s all week!

I will never tire of taking pictures of my girls as they sleep.  Never.  I will be a creepy mom with the camera when they are 16.  Yep.

Abilene has been working hard on her exercises, and loves it when Bella helps!

but boy does it exhaust me!

isn't that funny?

• Yesterday, Lucy fell asleep while picking her nose.  I got a picture for her yearbook.
• Bella has asked if she can have a set of adoptive parents as well, so when we are taking care of Abby she won't be alone.  Broke my friggin heart.
• Hubby is up for promotion.  Yay!  
• Gluten free bread is yucky.  Very yucky.
• Abby has a smile that will save the world.
• Bella and Lucy just grew out of all their clothes and shoes.  In the last month.  How is that possible?
• If it weren't for Facebook, I am not sure I would have survived the last 4 months.
• My dad turned 62 today.  I need to convince him he needs to work harder at being healthy so I can help him celebrate 92.